A down day

Seems like it doesn't take much to send me into a funk these days.  A few extra family stresses, a day going through old pictures and a well meaning person who didn't know what was going on.

She was trying to be encouraging, "every time I spent time in the hospital it drew me closer to God."  "You don't need to worry, God won't put you through more than you can bear."

I wished I hadn't joked about being a bit paranoid driving at night.  I wanted to tell the Lady to shutup, she didn't know me or what I'd been through!  And guess what, I had been through more than I could bear and I never want to go though anything like that again!

Instead I just smiled, nodded, and left.  I had been getting ready to leave anyways.  The drive home was a bit tense. 

And I thought about it, "was I closer to God than I had been?"  The answer is no, God showed me not how close He could be but how close He always was.  When I read Gods amazing truths in the Bible they were the same ones I read before, they just made more sense.  God's grace didn't become clearer it was the stain of sin on this world that became clearer.