Merry Christmas little James,
You are still missed every day. You are still loved by those who you left behind. I still wonder how different my life would be if you were here. This year your dad and I did something new. We bought presents for a little boy in remembrance of you. I don't know who will receive it but I hope they like it.
I wonder if you would have liked the gifts. We included blocks and board books. As well as a ball and stuffed animal. Those are what most four year olds like, I think. It is hard to think of you as anything other that a baby.
It is strange to think you have been gone so long, four years already. It seems like only yesterday I was holding you, saying goodbye. I do not know what eternal life looks like, if you know the changing seasons and what we on Earth are doing. We are getting ready to celebrate another baby boy who was born, loved, and died. This baby was special because his death is what gives me the hope of seeing you again.
He did not stay dead but conquered death so that we might have eternal life. Eternal life how wonderful that sounds. That is the life you now live, and I long to be a part of it.
Christmas is a time for family, without you our family is incomplete.
What a silly letter to send a child,
Your Mom (who will always love you)
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