How life is.

Sometimes it is hard to know how to react to people.  Sometimes instead of figuring out the correct reaction it is easier to simply not react.

Today we were at girl scouts talking about what babies need to survive.  Most of the girls thought of things like food, air, water, and someone to care for the baby.  One girl was a bit obsessed with bodily functions.  She was very insistent about babies needing to poop and pee.

Of course she was right.  In fact that was the problem James had.  The insides have to work right.  But that was not what we were suppose to be working on, so I directed the girls back to what we can give or do to help babies.

The hardest part was watching Charry, she knew that was why James died but she didn't seem to want to talk about it.  I don't know if she would have said something if I hadn't been the leader.

I knew because of the topic that I would be thinking of James, I purposely left my locket at home so the girls couldn't ask to see his picture.  But even so I wasn't sure how to react, sometimes having first hand knowlege makes it harder to talk about something rather than easier.