She was trying to be encouraging, "every time I spent time in the hospital it drew me closer to God." "You don't need to worry, God won't put you through more than you can bear."
I wished I hadn't joked about being a bit paranoid driving at night. I wanted to tell the Lady to shutup, she didn't know me or what I'd been through! And guess what, I had been through more than I could bear and I never want to go though anything like that again!
Instead I just smiled, nodded, and left. I had been getting ready to leave anyways. The drive home was a bit tense.
And I thought about it, "was I closer to God than I had been?" The answer is no, God showed me not how close He could be but how close He always was. When I read Gods amazing truths in the Bible they were the same ones I read before, they just made more sense. God's grace didn't become clearer it was the stain of sin on this world that became clearer.
