Boxing Day

Christmas is a bit overwhelming.  So much business, so much family, so much memories.  Trying hard not to be constantly remembering, how it was or thinking how it should be.

I miss my dad, his humor, his laugh.  As a kid, Christmas was the day we saw the most of him.  So Christmas is a time I am reminded the most of him.  He's the one who always had the music playing in the background, he's the one who picked the movies to watch.  He's the one who made fun of all the gifts.

I also miss my son, I wonder what Christmas would have been like.  One more stocking hung, one more child to chase, one mess after another to clean up.

But they are both celebrating with the Savior.   What a party it must be in Heaven every day as Gods promises are fulfilled and His glory shown.

I just need to get away from reminiscing and wishful thinking and remember what Christmas is really about.  It's not about family, laughter, being loving to one another.  It is about how God showed his love for us by sending His one and only Son, that all who believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Christmas Time is here again

Last weekend was hard for me.  I got in fights (well arguments) for silly reasons.  I didn't want to do the things that needed done.  I didn't get to do the fun things I wanted to do.  I was too emotional, happy or sad it all came out my eyes, i.e. I cried a lot.

Then came monday, a new week.  I took a step back and prayed for a new heart, a new understanding, and a new attitude.  God is good.  He is working on me and working with me.  Christmas is a time spent with loved ones and family.  For me with some of my loved ones and family gone Christmas will always be a time they are missed.

My mom is such an encouragement to me.  She is able to focus on the hope of eternity, the promise that those who go before us are already perfected.  I am sure she has bad days too.  But seeing her constantly relying on God through those time is a wonderful reminder to me to do like wise.

I pray that my focus during Christmas and beyond will be of the son of God come to earth to bring healing.  Now my happy tears are back as I praise God my son and my dad have both found that healing, I eagerly await the day I will join them and all these tears will be wiped away.