I bought my daughters Easter dresses that had matching doll dresses with them because I wanted them to remember Easter as special. I don't want them to look back at all the holidays as when Mom got moody and cried at church. But that is how I will remember the Holidays at least this year and last year.
This year I am also wrestling with mixed emotions as my father is dying of cancer. It seem this month things have gotten worse quickly and time is getting short. As a Christian I have hope, I will see him again, he will have a new perfect body, his pain will be gone. As a daughter I have grief, I will miss him, who will I go to for advice, my dad is the smartest man I've ever know, who will tell me when I am acting stupid. I'm sure there are many out there willing to take over telling me when I'm doing something dumb but it won't be the same.
No one wants to see someone they love in pain, we all pray for healing and mercy, but while we wait for those prayers to be answered it is so hard.
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